in & out slowly we fade in and out nothing really to care about think weÕre all lost by this time looking for something thereÕs nothing to find itÕs hard to think that this was me and itÕs hard to think this was reality each dayÕs an eternity weÕre just fighting to be free think we got the right idea here but weÕre not going anywhere know thereÕs more than christianity think weÕll find a philosophy if we just break through these doors so weÕll keep fighting this war know thereÕs more than what we see so weÕll trip out of this reality movinÕ rhythmically we think we found God next morning thatÕs not what we saw itÕs hard to think that this was me and itÕs hard to think this was reality chris sterns- bongos matt ahearn - hand drum sonny macatulo - bass teah - guitars and vocals thursday maybe friday on a thursday perhaps pine street is damp gonna get some flowers wrapped in black i will meet you at the cafˇ i never thought i would see you here again and iÕll tell you it is quite a nice surprise cuz i been playing sophisticated it is no fun refresh me on being young iÕve been living a hateful life it is no fun refresh me on being in love warm your hands with the coffee cup a smile and a laugh and i look up i am not as strong as i seem and i am not as weak as you see me truthfully i am in between though sometimes i play the extreme sometimes it is necessary and iÕll be yours if youÕll let me be both iÕm all yours if youÕll let me be free cuz iÕm not all superwomyn iÕm human too on 10 to volunteer park iÕll meet you there weÕll laugh and play like children like the old days the old days werenÕt they glorious and you say youÕve got nothing left to talk about with me now i think thatÕs funny cuz i wanna know everything you do now iÕve been away so long now i want that sunny day walking through the market holding your hand even though iÕve been so far away i changed and you changed youÕre still on my mind youÕre still with me i just wish you were brave enough to face me warm your hands with the coffee cup a smile and a laugh and i look up teah - guitars and vocals the clinic sitting in the clinic on the edge in between all is good in the clinic where babies die and womyn cry where babies die and womyn cry sitting in the clinic on the edge in between all is good in the clinic there he sits his head buried in a magazine so beautiful and so numb so numb to my pain numb to everything may as well not be here to fight our battle our battle but my body and iÕm sitting did i tell you that my baby had died you smile well i guess thereÕs nothing left to say about that so iÕm sitting in the clinic on the edge in between all is good in the clinic my baby died and i wonÕt cry where babies die and womyn cry adam - lead guitar emo - guitars sonny - bass kevin - drums teah - vocals ugly girl i am an ugly girl i am not what you wanted i have to fight for my respect now i have to fight to keep my name straight and i am an ugly girl you cannot take me home tonight and i have ugly insides you cannot seduce me tonight and everyone has heard different things and everyone has different connotations on my name i have to fight for my respect now and i have to fight to keep my name straight i want my self back i want to be big again fuck you go ahead and laugh if you do so please yes i do think that i could hate you and i am an ugly girl and i am sick of this soap opera i am an ugly girl and i am sick of jelly smiles and they say she really is a lovely girl they say oh isnÕt she a lovely girl rain rain my blood is grey i am individually curled and wrapped underneath your black castle window and you are as ugly as me but you have beauty and i have beauty teah - guitars and vocals chaotic dance one more set of moments, hours fly by and one more pack of cigarettes just once more maybe weÕll get there grinning vacantly and one more set of words yeah one more pass my way one more man says hey baby i am sorry but you just donÕt have what iÕm looking for and this is my habit right here in my pocket and thereÕs a heaven maybe we are all so sure howÕd we get so sure anyway one more set of words one more pass my way and one more man says hey babe and one more bullshit line i am sorry, well no not really i am sorry, actually i have lied you just donÕt have what i am looking for and this is my heaven right here in my pocket one more evening in this room one more silent argument nothing sour from the fountain of fire desire is the enemy and one more chaotic dance flesh in the fountain of fire one more chaotic dance we are the dance dear we ate the chaos and this is my heaven right here in my pocket adam - lead guitar emo - guitars sonny - bass teah - vocals i need to be rocked some times i feel like a baby and thatÕs when i need to be rocked today i didnÕt feel like superwomyn and i didnÕt feel like i could talk so i go on more than willing like the little girl i can be some times you went on almost unfazed i guess its the way you are all the time i yeah i yeah need to be rocked you know itÕs funny the way it goes but it hurts so much so much so many times but you know sometimes itÕs so good i canÕt help but thinking that weÕllnever say goodbye emo - bass teah - vocals & guitar scattered your actions tell me you care none very rarely i feel you care some someone told me you were crazy i donÕt believe it you amaze me somewhere somehow i saw your soul there wait iÕm blind now iÕm not worthy alone alone now where are you hiding someone hold me while iÕm crying sometime somehow i saw your effort howÕd it get away everything is different believe it or not i still miss you your affection is a virtue ambivalence is my friend now where do we all go it was a game i am sure now the jokeÕs on me youÕre with her now tryinÕ me out i didnÕt fit you its time to move on to the next fool i look at her and i can see it i donÕt want to play with me yet i think iÕm stronger i know for a fact why donÕt i end this no good act ambivalence is my friend now where do we all go adam and emo - guitars sonny - bass kevin - drums teah - guitar and vocals decided to move on in the morning i listened for your telephone call in the afternoon i waited by the door for you and you are such a big man now you canÕt even be my friend i suppose youÕll take off in this world youÕll take off and forget about me and i suppose iÕll take off too but i wonÕt forget about you no i wonÕt forget about you no i wonÕt forget about you really i am sorry but i wonÕt let it be a burden forever really i am sorry but i wonÕt hold this guilt forever really i am sorry but i will not be your mother in the evening i returned home fiddled my guitar and drank a glass thought for a while and decided to move on iÕd guess that you are in some obscure corner getting high with your friends so much thinking and so much talking but so little doing and thatÕs a let down and i suppose its a bit of a let down cuz you think iÕm not such a bitch anymore and i suppose its a bit of a let down cuz you think iÕm not so loud anymore but you donÕt even know the whole story teah - guitars and vocals none of your business i need never to say a word to you cuz you just looked at me and i can never change what you see i never thought myself to be open book but you seem to think that you know me and now i see that you cannot bring yourself to smile at me there are people in this town whom i would entrust nothing to but they seem to know a few things about me i guess they got it down the line i guess they heard it through the grapevine though itÕs really none of your business no itÕs really none of your interest teah - drums, guitars and vocals retrospect i try my hardest to think back but i canÕt deal with the pain i cannot see your smile i cannot see your face anymore some will interpret this as a love song but love thatÕs just the part that is gone ceiling crashes down on me and i canÕt get up iÕm dwellinÕ in my safe haven now and i still canÕt get up still canÕt get up sometimes i wonder was it all a bad dream but i know it was reality it was happening to me i try to delete every moment spent there but i canÕt hide the hurt inside no i canÕt hide the hurt inside no i cannot fight the hurt inside no i canÕt hide the hurt inside ceiling crashes down on me and i canÕt get up iÕm dwellinÕ in my safe haven now and i still canÕt get up ceiling crashes down on me and i canÕt get up iÕm dwellinÕ in my safe haven now i still canÕt get up i still canÕt get up teah - drums, guitars and vocals killing freak you think by now weÕd have it figured out you think by now that weÕd be living happy healthy community instead on the t.v. screen genocide hypocrisy killing freak i am free five minutes of freedom then sucked out of the wilderness into all the urban hell where i fell and my head goes up while my body goes down my brain cushioned by a game confusion is the name who am i anyway i knew ... yesterday going home i got lost along the way but there where i live is not my home i used to see my life as just marking time until i was free free from something so petty such as parental security but now i find liberty right in the arms of my mommy all the adults they look at me downright disgustingly they mutter who is she i am nobody and i am you thatÕs reality you cannot escape from it pleasantly miles upon miles of trophy homes crowding the land our brothers and sisters used to live and they have been pushed farther and farther so rudely soon there will be nothing next time you turn around you wonÕt see a mountain with beautiful trees instead youÕll see a fatal overgrown community only thereÕs no communing in this community and all the hippies will cry and all the yuppies will smile (repeat) theyÕll smile at their brand new roads and their shopping malls and i will cry cuz the lions will have died and the only thing left will be house cats and dogs living pathetically hopefully you will cry when you realize your life as you know it is a universal lie hopefully you will cry when you realize religion as you know it is a universal lie itÕs easy to get lost in my mind daydreaming of sage and sand and the mountain green all the beautiful hippies all the beautiful hippies and itÕs easy to lose track of time especially these parts where the water flows freely i visit this land and i canÕt help but fall in love with everything itÕs like god i canÕt quite describe but if i were to feel god it would probably feel like i did on those days and now iÕm flying over the mountain in this oversized bird i say a silent goodbye to my sacred earth lover my earth lover who sets me free and i will cry because the lions will have died hopefully you will cry when you realize your life as you know it is a universal lie hopefully you will cry when you realize religion as you know it is a universal lie teah - guitars and vocals too close too close to just yesterday and today you are not quite the same letÕs face the fact that indeed things do change but i will not stand and watch you fall apart and i will not be your mother chorus i'm going to stick it through i'm going to make do i'm going to tell you i'm going to break you and all the while i wish you would hold my (repeat) hold my hand i'm going to run from you i'm going to cry for you i'm going to kill you i'm going to give birth to you and all the while i will hold your (repeat) hold your hand you are so much you donÕt know and i will do my part the best i can i know you will do your part the best you can but you must not stand and watch me fall apart and you must not be my father chorus teah - guitars and vocals kitty iÕm having a moment yes you are the man of my dreams but i do not live in a dream world i live in this obscure reality oh gee sorry that does not fit in with your plans actually i doubt you had any plans chorus 1 no no stay back yea you smell real nice and you are pretty smooth but right now I need something something real there are no means of apology but go ahead and say what you have to go ahead and say what you have to my ears are open iÕve no reply chorus 2 and this friend said come out and play carefree and when your fingers are sore i will kiss them and sorry i had to butcher this tree but those kittens were baiting me oh yes sorry i had to butcher this tree but those kitties were baiting me so now weÕre at that in between space you smoke a joint i try to feel out the place i am a little scared i am a little anxious chorus 1&2 sorry i had to butcher this tree but those kittens were baiting me teah - guitars and vocals four pink walls four pink walls are closing in four pink walls of the bathroom stall and i donÕt try to make sense anymore i donÕt try to sound nice cuz theyÕre not listening anyway and when they hear me they just think iÕm insane yeah all i think all that really matters is that in my own space i am happy in my own space i am happy two lovers light a cigarette under the street lamp the street is damp daddy donÕt you think i deserve just that yeah four pink walls are closing in four pink walls of the bathroom stall and i donÕt care about fucking AÕs thatÕs not my trip anyway all i want is to rip your heart out and put it on stage yeah all i want is to cut you in pieces and when you laugh youÕll feel all better all i think all that really matters is that in my space i am happy i think all that really matters is that in my space i am happy four pink walls of the bathroom stall teah - drums, slide guitar, guitar and vocals sky thereÕs a blonde man and heÕs cut down that tree and that tree now its bleeding and its blood sings to me white colour of the waters and the clouds in the sky and the sky is raining on me now i canÕt get by without working through the sky sky color of the clouds in the sky and that blonde man has cut down that tree and its blood sings to me i believe itÕs raining outside rain come down purify me rain come down make me wet power of rain make my heart pound power of the pale sky make me shine teah - keyboard, guitar and vocals